Star Gazing.

I NEED to go star gazing. I have a love for anything space, and i now own 2 books on star gazing which i have not cracked open.

Examinations... not really

Today is Wednesday.. on Friday at 10am i will be sitting down preparing to complete my science exam, which i am in no way shape or form ready for. Yet, i choose to write about how i might actually fail. Good choices.
I need to start studying.
... naaaaaaaaaaaah.
Instead i'll tell you all about my serene morning.
It was one of the most quietest and calmest morning i have ever had. I got up, conveniently, and the time my alarm clock went off, 7:45 am, usually i wake up at 8:10 and rush like a mad woman. Anyway, i got up, smiled when i looked at the clock, brushed my teeth and washed my face. Then while listening to some jazz music on the radio i twirled over to my closet, chose very comfortable clothing, which involved a very bright and happy green, and got dressed. Put on my makeup, and favorably my eyeliner turned out very straight and clean. Anywhooo, i pranced along up stairs to the kitchen, packed my lunch, poured myself some cereal and cut up a banana, sat down, took my sweet time while still listening to jazz and reading the newspaper. And sincerely enjoying myself. I didn't know how something so simple can make a person so incredibly happy and just.. well.. content. You know?

Light Mood.. Not Really.

Lalalalalala
I am currently listening to 91.1 jazz fm which puts me in such a light mood. Also just finishing a light mocha really helps.
.. yes, i am aware of how incredibly lame i must've sounded. But i am so relaxed right now, nothing can bother me. So insert your nasty little comment down below, i don't care..... IMAGINE. It will kill me. Please don't. I'm a fragile little tulip.
Ohmygoodness. I can't even help but make fun of myself.
Anywho, I've been sitting down at my desk, over-joyed because of this rare occasion of no homework. And frankly.. i'm thinking too much about everything. I think i'm one of those people that has to think about EVERYTHING. I really need to start going with the "flow", you know?
I am going to be completely honest, recently i have been thinking to fondly of myself. I need to stop before i get over confident and cocky. We won't get into the details, because of those of you that actually read this blog that i personally know will probably bombard me with annoying questions.
Mooooooving onnnnn, i need to get back into my reading mode, and it's not as if i don't have any books to read. In fact i have 4 books i've been planning on reading for quite a while now.
it's 9pm now and i have to go watch my scheduled time of 8 Simple Rules with my brother! :$

Update #2

Winter break has just ended, and might i add it was amazing!
I had something to do everyday this break.. which didn't leave much time for homework. :/ meh.
I had the best christmas ever. Spent it with my most favourite people on earth, my mom, brother, two aunts and two cousins. We have a little backward tradition, and like to open all gifts on christmas eve. Anyway, we spent the night at one of my aunt's places, it was wonderful, amazing food, fantastic gifts, and phenomenal people. My two aunts and mom put together this cute little game to play, so because there was my two cousins, brother and i they put 18 gifts under the tree, and numbered them. We would go one by one to pick a number out of bag, go retrieve the gifts with the corresponding number. Each of us would do this, till we were each left with four gift bags. Then at the end we would open them up and decide if we wanted to trade! Plus we each got $130! :)
New years was just as amazing! Except this time i was with my brother, mom, and one aunt and cousin. We decided to go to niagra falls because we had heard great things about it on new years. So we head off to Niagra at about 6pm, drive an hour in the wrong direction, turn around, drive an hour more then planned, get there at i think 10pm, park the car in some sketchy parking lot, not far from the falls, and move along to the venue. Now i've gone to Niagra falls far to many times to counts, and you would think i know this place like the back of my hand. but NOPE, it has completely changed, i'm so confused by all the new roads and buildings. WTF HAPPENED?!
So we finally get to the venue, it's 10:30 now, and ET Canada is hosting this event! Which was pretty cool.. well.. for me at least.. :$. To my surprise kardinal offishall and the barenaked ladies preformed! I'm not really into either of those bands, but when you're actually there, listening to it live you start to like it, anyway, i had no idea, but the barenaked ladies sang the theme song of the 'big bang theory'! I was over come by joy when i heard them play the first couple chords! And good lord does the lead singer have beautiful eyes! It's 2am now, and we all just want to eat and sleep but the hotels are WAY to expensive, i'm talking like $500 a night, or the hotels are completely booked. So we are forced to drive back. We get home at 5am and collapse. It was great -_-

I'd share some more, but i am currently dying of a shore throat, stuffy nose, and an aching body. Fml -_-

Santa and Matching Sweaters

Yesterday after school my friend, Eleni and i went to the mall to do some last minute Christmas shopping. But of course, we get completely side-tracked and thaaaank god we did because we had the most childish, embarrassing and eventful evening of our lives.
1. We went to Disney store and bought matching christmas sweaters.
2. We took a picture with a drugged out Santa.
3. We got Yogen Fruz (i got a gingerbread one!)
4. We hung out on the beds at sears for two hours.
5. We played with children toys.
6. We went through children's clothing.
I guess you could say, we had an amazing evening.

Not a typical Friday Night

Hello one and all! ... tori ;)
anyway, tonight started out as a terrible friday night. Thought i was going to stay home, watching Threes Company with my dogs. But a miracle happened... well not really, but i went on twitter to find this hopeful tweet of "Skating anyone?!" and i was all like. HELL YES.
So, 30 minutes later i'm at the skating rink with people i would normally not hang out with on a friday night, which turned out to be one of the most simplest, yet cutest nights. After we were done with our 'graceful' skills and techniques on the ice we made our way to starbucks, loitered for 2 hours, laughed WAY to loud, had creepy old men staring at us, and read FML's feeling slightly better about our pathetic lives. After we were done being reckless, one of our pack left us and we made our booties to timmies, yet to find some crazy Muslim man speaking very loudly to his phone, even though terrified we still stayed. Talked about, excuse my french, stupid ass shit, laughed like there was no tomorrow when nothing was funny. I think that's how you know when you've found people you actually enjoy.
Hm, you'd be surprised about the people you never speak to, but could have everything in common. It's mind boggling.. well not really, i just wanted to say boggling, HAHAHAHA.
ANYWHO, this was a pretty shitty post, but oh well, i'm in a amazing mood.

BTW, when i got home THERE WERE HUGE SNOWFLAKES FALLING, NOTHING COULD'VE MADE THIS NIGHT BETTER.
ah, what an amazing night. :)

Firework

I know most of you must be extremely annoyed with this song, but i don't care.
Anyway as i have expressed my love of Katy Perry, i never was IN LOVE with her music, just her. But this song i really am. The lyrics and the video about MEAN something, which lately is a huge shock when it comes to the new pop culture music scene, you know what i mean?
Well, i hope you enjoyed!
Thanks for reading :)

Changes

hello my loyal readers,
and by readers i mean auntie and a new addition, my cousin. cool.
seriously this is not good, i need to start promoting my blog more.

Anyway, some things have changed, and not for the better.
1.I've decided that i am not ready to become a vegan, just yet. I can't do with out my pastries, but i know one day i surly will.
2. The Spain and France trip during the march break has been canceled, due to shitty new Dolores Umbridge (Harry Potter reference) of a principle. Thanks to her, not enough people were able to go this year, so for the first time EVER the Europe trip has been canceled, and may i say very clearly WHAT THE FUCK.
3. I'm not to sure the whole student exchange thing is going to happen, since i can't find anywhere or anyone that can teach me Italian! :( I think i'm the most disappointed about this. i was extremely looking forward to the cappuccinos, biscottis, bread, pizza, pasta, and most of all the COUNTRY ITSELF.

AHHH. this is why i always regret making plans, they never work out!
I need to just go with the flow and not question it.
eff..-_- can i please just stay under the covers till the holiday break?

Oh My...

Well it's been quite a long time since we've had our last encounter.
I deeply regret not writing to you all, and by all i mean that one aunt in sweden.
Seriously.
Anyway, for all you non-existent readers, i am currently doing absolutely nothing.
But, quite a few things have happened.
1. I've recently become awesome.
2. Referred to as a 50 year old woman.
3. Trying to teach myself Italian.
Now, all those three things have a reason behind it.
1. I'm awesome because i've been trying to raise awareness about animal cruelty and the industry. Coming from a free screening of "earthlings" (Which i strongly suggest every single one of you watch) downtown with two of my friends and my brother. 5 minutes into the documentary everyone in the room was bawling their eyes out. It was moving. I have been a vegetarian for about a year, but i am now officially a vegan. Due to the documentary. I've become much more motivated to help these poor animals who can't speak for them selves. It not fair to them. We all need to help these poor, helpless, defenseless animals. They have families, hearts, and feel just as much pain as us. Its inhumane and goes against everything we were taught about being fair to one another, treating each other with the love and compassion we deserve.
2. I have been referred to as a 50 year old woman because apparently i relate to old people to much, and by old people i mean from 20-50. -_- well i guess its not such a bad thing. Mostly because and i quote "All you do is go into coffee shops, read, watch old comedy sitcoms, and talk about deep issues." - Victoria. All that is partially true. But is it so bad? Anyway, i just hope this doesn't mean im going to age super fast, and when im 20 ill be complaining about my back hurting and having hip surgery. ahh, well what can you do? I enjoy talking to older people. Not my fault. But... don't get me wrong, i am sometimes like a 10 year old girl. Talk about harry potter with my friends, make inappropriate jokes, and drool over attractive men ;) frankly my mother still does all those things.. well maybe not the harry potter part. Disney Land: never went = no childhood. I plan to fix this before i die, even if it means when im 80. (:
3. I'm trying to teach myself Italian because i will hopefully be doing a student exchange with someone from there. If this does work out, then she would be coming to stay with my family and i for 3 months, and i would do the same there. Sounds pretty exciting, doesnt it? But pretty scary. I have thought about not doing it. Cause 3 months away from my family is a lot. And its not like im going to go stay with relatives, but with total complete strangers. You know? Its a scary experience, but an amazing one. I am so lucky and grateful to have all these amazing opportunities. For example this march break i will be going with my school to Spain and France. And one my best friends, Taylor, will be coming along too. Now doesn't that sound fantastic? Going on a plane with your friends, staying at hotels with your friends in EUROPE?!
Some times i feel like i take things for granted. Which i really shouldn't, but it's human nature? Right? :$ i feel terrible. I have the greatest family, and everything i could possibly ask for. Yet i still complain over boys and homework? I need to get a hold of myself.

Anyway i've taken the choice to become more environmentally friendly. I probably drink Starbucks about 4 times a week. So i've decided to use a reusable mug from now on. Imagine how many trees that would be saving. A LOT.
I have three different types of light in my room. I usually use the brightest and the one that uses the most kilo-watts. I am now using the one with the least, and it honestly doesn't make much of a difference, brightness wise. Does that make sense? nah, i don't think.

I am greatly sorry about not writing enough. But i promise to start writing more often... auntie. -_-
seriously, im delusional. More people need to start reading my blog or i might be sent to an asylum.

Remember: Laughter is the greatest medicine. ;)

Just a rant and an idea

So, school is about to start in a week.
Goals:
-find a job
-keep a 83% average
-complete 200 hours of community service before summer
-palates every saturday with my friend
-join at least two clubs
-orlando for christmas break
-euro trip for march break
-next summer germany & sweden
-and have a regular social life.

i know what your thinking, HAHA your funny. imagine that was possible. but it is, all i have to do is cut out sleep. and this will not be a problem.
funny thing is, i haven't started any of these and i'm already stressed out just thinking about it. not a good sign.
so i've decided i need a simple hobby that won't take a lot of time to take my mind off of things and bring me into an alternate world of my own. best way to accomplish this? write stories.
now, i have never been interested in writing or reading. but this summer has changed me in a way. i started reading A LOT. and i've gotten really into fantasy, which i never really fancied, i think this is all because of my love for harry potter.
now i haven't gotten an idea about what i'd like to write about, or the genre.
although i am leaning into fantasy just because i love the idea of being able to make up your own world, making up the rules and having no one let you how to write it. it sounds pretty sweet to me. but then again, this whole thing might just be another phase, and i haven't really changed at all. why can't i stick to one thing and be good at it?
and why is this post so confusing. sorry to whoever may be reading this.
but i guess this is all part of growing up, going to one thing to another trying to find where you belong. but the problem is, it seems that everyone else has found out where they stand. and i've grown sick and tired of it. oh well what can you do?
this post isn't going where i intended. :|

anyway, maybe once i've started writing short stories or long stories i'll start posting them here.

Thanks for reading :)

Harry Potter marathon.

I know this blog is a bit late, but what the hell?

My friend, taylor, and i had a harry potter movie marathon from august 6th-7th.
Let me start off by saying it was life changing, seriously.
i am currently reading the entire series. i changed my phone and laptop desktop background to a harry potter picture. and i can't stop thinking about it.
i LOVE IT.

anyway, back to our amazing weekend. it took place from 7pm-10am to the next morning.
15hrs baby. thats what you call dedication.
But u can't expect us to have a harry potter marathon without the proper food.
so, we made beer butter, chocolate covered pretzel wands, and pop rocks drinks. and i think you should know, the they all failed. but it was still deeeslish (Y) :) although we did have to walk from the grocery store to taylors house, because we're just that stupid not to check the bus times. -.- (btw, taylor was wearing wedges HAHA)

so, its 12am and we've only watched 2 movies, but we are feeling great.
then 4 am comes around and we are super hyper.
6 am arrives and were getting a bit drowsy.
9 am is a bitch.
10 am i passed out.

so, i highly recommend if you plan on having a marathon of any sort, please, please PLEASE start at 3pm. you will thank us.

over all, one of the best weekends of my life.

ps. this weekend we are having a starwars marathon with shannon. 8) hahaha.
oh and just so you all know, yes, we are in high school.

Dear Teenagers,

Im Back.

Haven't wrote a new post in a month. Because of my trip to iran, buuuut its been a week since i've been back. Frankly, i was just too lazy to write a new post. haha. sorry? (A)
Anywho, my trip was... hm whats the perfect word to sum it all up?, uhh how about SPECTACULAR. yeah, that sounds about right. why? BECAUSE I WAS WITH THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN THE WORLD TO ME. my family :) ah, how much i despise yet adore that word. always there for you, LITERALLY... ALWAYS. They spoiled me to the maximum. Cooked their meals entirely (well mostly) planned around me. Since me and my mother are vegetarian/vegans. They did everything in their power to keep my mom and i entertained while we were there because, like i said, they were busy getting ready for the wedding (which by the way was adorable). I can never thank them enough for all the love they had served on a golden tray right to me. family getting along well gives me a joy no other action on earth could fulfill. cheesy yet 100% true. i guess what im trying to get at is that, I LOVE MY FAMILY.

After the first day we arrived in canada, i had my week booked. This was a sign of a (excuse my french) fucking amazing summer.

Hopefully i'll be updating more often, since i have no excuse of studying.
but it's all good, since i love writing in my blog.

Thanks for reading! :D

Katy Perry

So basically i've gotten a hugeeee girl crush on Katy Perry.
Why? BECAUSE SHES JUST THE MOST GORGEOUS AND AMAZING WOMAN ON EARTHHH. DUUUR. <3

just thought i could share :)

Epic Weekend? I think so.

So this past weekend was one of the best weekends of my life.

On the friday after school, i went a little more up north to oak ridges with a few friends for the oak ridged fair. it was so much fun! we chilled a little there then went to my other friends house, a few people went into the pool and the rest of us just hung out. But around 11pm we were waiting for our rides to go home, but while waiting in the backyard, a fellow popped his head over the fence and stared talking to us (clearly he was wasted) and asked if him and two friends could come join us in the pool...UMMM. HELLL NAAAH. so we made up a bunch of excuses so they could go away.anyway, eventually they left, but the second they walked away our ride pulled up, but they didn't know which house to stop at so they kept going, so we sprinted out of the backyard and ran to car! somewhat embarrassing but funny. :)

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On the saturday 3 friends and i went to the NXNE music and film festival downtown. Its a festival that is held for 5 days, but we got the one day wristband for the music festival only. Anyway, they were only indie bands playing, which it like HEAVEN FOR ME, cause that's all i listen to. We took the subway at 11am and got there around 12. After awhile we realized we were EXTREMELY early, like 7 hours too early. cause thats when all the venues open for the wristband holders, but luckily there were still a lot of bands play on younge and dundas square to kill some time.
long story short. WE MET THE SOFT PACK, GOT AUTOGRAPHS AND PICTURES.
ALSO MET DIGITS AND GOT AUTOGRAPHS.
GOT INTO 19+ BARS TO SEE THE SICKEST BANDS EVER.
BUT.. we have never sweat or walked SO MUCH in our entire lives.
omg. it was really just the most amazing experience of my life. LEGIT.
and next year we will know exactly what to do and where to go. :)
CAN'T WAIT ! :D

Confuzzled.

OH GAWD. so much to do, so little time.
Heres how my week is going to play out.
So today i had a french exam and cleaned my forest of a room
tues, i have a eng exam, then ortho app, then going to get community hours
wed art exam, then sushi restaurant with friends
thurs 8:30 am - 4pm fairview mall with shida, then shidas grad, then getting my hair trimed and dyed
friday wake up at 8 am, go get last mintues things for iran, pack, nails done, find a dress for the wedding, and summer clothing, 4pm head to airport, 6pm off to iran.

HOLY SHNIZZLE, im gonna have no time to take a breather. good lord.

im going to HAVE to MAKE time for everything.

hopefully i can get one last blog in before i leave for iran, but most likely i won't. So i'll try to blog the second i get internet access. :)

SUMMER TIME HERE I COME !

MTV AUDITION:TAKING CHANCES

PLEASE WATCH THIS VIDEO AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, IT IS THE ONLY WAY FOR US TO WIN. THANKS.

Update

So it is june, 9th and in exactly 2 weeks it will be my last exam.
june 24th is my cousins graduation, and june 25th ill be in a plane off to iran.

but until then i still have to get by 3 exams and like a million assignment that they are shoving down our throats to get done. not our fault they wait till the end of the semester to actually give us the work. -_-

BUUUT time goes by fast and i CANNOT wait for june 25th!!
but then again im ALREADY thinking about September. :( oh how much i dread the first day of grade 10. I really need to stop worrying so much and just enjoy each moment as it goes by.

thanks for reading, and hopefully i'll get another post up by sunday about my friday night! it's gonna be siccck.

To Create is To Destroy

Summer time= Iran?

Only 16 DAYS OF SCHOOL! (not counting weekends)
then, hopefully off to Iran with my mom to attend my cousin's wedding.
Everyone is asking me why i want to go soooo badly, there's nothing to do there,and the governments so called "laws" make me want to pull my eye balls out of there sockets and eat them in front of my family. yeah, so i guess you could say it slightly makes me angry. You'd think if i WANT to go it must be something extremely important to me, and well it is. My family is my most precious treasure. And i want to be at every important milestone in each and everyone of their lives.
I don't blame them for not coming here, cause well they just can't, but im sure they would if they could.
I miss them like no one could imagine.
I guess the less you see someone in your life time, the more they have an emotional impact on you. I've only been to Iran about 4 times, i think. And just through 4 visits they've got me on a hook. damn.

Were all just one big happy family <3

I wonder if any of them will read this, i hope not.
They'll get all sentimental and all teary, yeah, i don't deal with tears to well.